Jane: Mas gusto kong maging mommy.
HAHAHA why not? Magka-rhyme naman. XD
I should stop watching movies about dreams and talents and the future. Seriously. It makes me wonder what I would be doing in the next five years or so. It makes my head hurt and I don't want to think too much. Sembreak kaya. XD
I am excited about graduation and all. But the truth is I am scared of what will happen after that.
In a matter of five months or so, I'd be busy looking for jobs but I don't even know what jobs to seek. Would I go into research and practice DevCom? Or would I go into mainstream and be rich? Would I take up a masteral degree in DevCom or take extra Educ courses in Diliman? Would I be a journalist or a teacher? Would I be writing science stories or random features? And the big question is, would I stay here in Laguna or go somewhere far like Manila? All I know is that I want to stay in the country. I don't know. I just don't want to leave.
Back in high school, I planned to work in Korea for a year right after college graduation. Be an English tutor or better, live the life of a fanfic heroine. But I don't want that anymore. Well, I still want to go to Korea but not work there. Maybe study?
I'm not even sure if any company would take me. I don't even look mature enough. One look and they'll think I'm a high school student or something. But at times I think I look older. I just have to dress the part. Therefore, I need shopping money. :))) [Eto talaga dahilan kung bakit gusto ko ng magtrabaho XD]
It's hard to plan the future if I don't even know what I want. Haha.
What I do know is that my parents really, really want me to be a lawyer. So my roommate will take LAE (Law Aptitude Exam) on the 22nd and my parents are asking me if I don't want to try. Try lang. But no, I don't really want to try. I still don't even know what to do with my thesis, taking up law is far, far from my mind.
But I kind of envy those people who are so sure of what they want. I also envy those people with so much talent. Hahaha.
Argh. I should decide sooner or later what I want to do with my life. I can't be a student forever.T__T Right now, I feel like the lead actress in a coming-of-age movie. XDDD
I'm running out of movies to watch. TT__TT
I really really wanted an external HD but I have no money. I also am afraid to ask for it as a christmas gift from my parents since we really can't afford to waste money on unnecessary things. Boo. Kelangan na naming magtipid. I really hope we'd get through this.T_T
So when Aika, Ate Mich, Ate and I went to Trinoma last tuesday, I looked for an external HD to see whether its too pricey or not. But I couldn't find a single store that sells one.T___T But I did find a cute bag and resisted on buying it since I already bought a bag last sunday at the sedera in Alaminos.T___T AMP. Ang cute talaga! Black na backpack tapos may stars.TT___TT Hanggang ngayon naiisip ko pa rin sya WAHA. At ang mura nya. :'(
I went home broken hearted. </3
But my father went back from Italy last wednesday right??? And guess what??? He gave my sister and I an external HD each! *dies*
I was literally jumping for joy. XD My father didn't know we were looking for one. We already have a 100GB external HD but it's non-functioal right now (since last last year actually T_T). I have no idea where he found the idea to buy ate and I an external HD but whatever. I love my parents <3 We don't even have to ask. :)